will rainbow appear after rain?

quite tired... honey Xian Xian should know why... so sudden... i am to blame... Elene going talk to me on sat... everything started from my wrong motive... but i had fallen in love... to a person who i know for few months anh who care and concern...


can any song make me fall a sleep peacefully? i feel like crying not because tat i want to let go it is because now is a difficult... no BUT then what answer she want? i just want to work for God and continue the relationship cant you just stop worrying? i know what i am going on i just hope you will understand what i trying to tell... you shock i know, i was wrong i know, but i am contented with now can you just agree with this relationship because i want him to be the last one, i know you scare that i might be hurt cause of his past but i accepted him, what had happen can just like it go? what important is i know love isn't just feeling yet is to do what is best for the another person. both of me and him is still learning... i know you want me to give him time to grow on his on toward our common God, but is it a must?

i had decided to leave cell for a purpose... and well i think it is right for me to leave for in the first i go for wrong motive. and part of it is i didn't grow...

God, will you allowed rainbow after rain? it raining in my heart now... Lord thank you but i really pray that he will be the last one, and i promise i will not get distracted and yet continue to do Your will... if i really distracted then i promise i will discuss with him...

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well, no more hiding? sorry honey for ytd... didnt noe you was carrying such a heavy bag and disappointed you and all... thank God that you still have patience with me during cell study... XD d n t paper fail for sure... now everyone know about it... and i am kind of happy actually... ^.^ i am still learning on the way, please be patience with me when misunderstanding happen...

these few days was really great... XD thank God... hope it will continue and i dun mind... what should i write? i dun noe.... ha ha
not going church tml cause dad house celebrating mother early.... help carry stuff...

exam is next week... XC not really prepare but good that he and elene do help me with my studies....

God bless...