ha ha now is like 2plus le and i now in kai neng house... finish watching absolute boyfriend, heh heh so touching... den downloaded the theme song XDD happy... very touching but the ending isn't what i want, maybe because it isn't fairy tale bah... ytd exchange present with kai neng and jin hui den make our D.I.Y sushi ^.^ have a lot of small talk about how we meet and when we started to get close since sec 1... and how we celebrate Christmas past 2 years... and of couse our primary school lives... so happy chatting and mommy not yet call mi home... hopefully wont call mi to take cab home... enjoy!

today, in the after going to meet fishball and talk about her stuff and hope she is aright... next is meet honey after his church celebration... seem like so long neve chat with you ha ha... but not really long... dun noe.. hope youenjou your day and love much much... miss you many many lots

D.I.Y camp, malacca mission trip and finally Nlevel result is release... everything is over.... what needed to submit is already submitted...

THank you God for that wonderful result although still disappointed for math... many things to worry about but guess there will be a solution from God bah...

hey honey, you seem like seeing my tears past few days... i feel so sorry... you see all different side of me and yet you love me still... thank you... it been 8month plus le... somtimes i really dun want you to worry so much about me because you got so much things to handle le... no matter what i still love you more and more... you do all sort of things to make mi laugh when i'm stress... thank and love... muackks... love and miss you... anyway elene say it is a good chioce of going NS early... XDD love love whenever i'm with you i feel so so happy and wanna spent it longer but i couldn't... ><>

come to me - Jesse McCartney

i'm sorry if i been showing you this type of lousy attitude, not because i dun love you anymore but because i miss you too much... is like we did not meet for so many days... in order not to think about you, i have to be a little stronger and heartless towards you... i guess i had been depending too much on you, and such result i tend to be missing you too much over some time. i hurt you because in this way i tot i may feel better but i m no much better anyway...

about today so last min tell you about braces thing you must be very hurt... because i cant find the courage to tell you as you know i am very vain... sometime you noe i keep things to myself than to share with you although you are open towards me so please give mi more time... 4 more days to 8th month and i will be in malacca for mission trip, hope you miss mi very much ha ha... just wish that you be happy because it been 8th month and continue counting for more...

hey past few days what you been doing all these while, it like there is gap between us when we stop meeting to share and it like getting more strange... i dun believe love that last actually... but let me trust that you can do it so that i could believe that the love is true... i know sometimes i tend to doubt you in many things, forgive me because to me your past and all makes you like a play boy, i know you are not. but problem is i m lacking of security... if you could be like the song "come to me" by Jesse McCartney i will love you more than i love him... ha ha kidding... hope you could be more patient toward me... when my phone rings and i saw the caller ID is you i will start to smile without any reason, maybe you're not the only i smile for but no doubt that you're closer than anyone...

oh i m typing too much.. okay stop here... love you even when we are not in a happy state... and hope you love the surpise i prepare to give you... muackss.

D.I.Y camp just ended and next week thus is my mission trip...

YFC camp was really good, staying at Christ Church secondary... the school is big big big... bigger than my school even if it combine with pri sch... 2 people i ignore in this camp which is zach and timonty- dun know how spell... both are guys, and both are weirdo... zach the sec 2 seem like, love to come near mi and wan ting and we both think that he... not mature yet... another is I.T.E student and is 20years old, first day of camp he like saying mi... all of the campers must be in music room seated on chair, then he suddenly seat beside mi, so i was like dislike it and i ask wan ting to seat beside mi... and he say, you come church is to make friend not to choose who you going to seat with or whatsoever... was silent... but hey, is you the one who choose to seat beside mi and you are a guy, dun you feel weird seating with girl that you just know although we are in the same ministry...

well in this 3 days i learned quite alot of stuff and thing that chee hong had reminded to everyone to watch out for... the courage to share and to pray to seek God to soften those peoples' heart which we are sharing to...

play some germ games and the meaning behind it was the spread of germ is fast and we got to cure those germ in the fastest speed... in another word is that, the kingdom of God is coming, so we must share and help the non believers to come to know God yet not let Satan to destroy them...

food was good although the serving is not that much, but i could say i enjoying it... the heart to prepare to share the real meaning of Christmas, and also start to live to trust and obey in Him...

WARNING... last session that ong chee hong teach

worship is not about having good light, goods piano, must have a good singer to lead the worship time or church day very holy... nor it is going for big concert, everyone sing God praises until very emotional or very high, then when come to teaching about bible all sleep...

But Worship is about is anywhere at every time... it about keep repenting and we keep change because we believe in His name where eternal life is... the earth is a short term time but the reward from God is forever... the inheritance in heaven is the rewards that is everlasting and perfect...

let Christmas be Christmas once again as if Christmas without Christ, it nothing...

lastly, here is my prayer to God...

Dear God, thank you for allowing me to attend for this wonderful camp that i had come to learn more about you and made many new friend and skills...

It You that brings me back once again, you said we are like Your lost sheep, but You did not let us go yet You came and find us... to You I'm like flying here and there not being consistent but Lord please bring me back again... You are powerful, You hated Sin because You are too Holy, You can choose to just destroy us and create another perfect world, but you did not, yet you let Your only son Christ Jesus to save all of our sin for once and for all... i'm sorry for all the sin that i had made it and i want to Thank you and acknowledge You as God and bring the good news to everyone.

In Jesus name i pray,

Aman.

Honey, i'm sorry as i am really tired and i cant make it for next sat as i'm in mission trip... you can accompany your esmer to church and have no worries for me... and i wont be the extra one that you still have to take care of... if you are happy working then just continue it. i not sure if this is wise, but i still got to say, work for a purpose and know what you are working for... i know you are not happy with me but i have nothing much to say for now... just like 6more days to happy 8th month... and be happy...

much love and misses even in or out of the camp...

whatever the case is, you have lose you temple on me again... i know it me again that making you do that...

today went pei hwa pri... doing cca stuff St.john... wake up at 5am... Tired...

anyway this few i been angry over those stuff which i couldnt accept about ur bestfriend... but i never stop loving u since the we were tgt... even you say it just friend but i still mind cause i m ur baby... honey i want you to noe that you can have ur best friend but there must be some clear lines... you noe so i shall trust you because i love you... i was touched when i say you idiot and ur reply is,
i think no matter if i become idiot or not... i am sure i still love you de...

thank you atleast i smile before i sleep... working full at j8 on fri XDD must make more sale... anyway a little to share got 1 day i worked 11 hours and my sale only $1.95-no face sia.... ha ha ytd went to eat sakea buffet with elene and xin ying, NICE... fat le lar... honey so happy...

i am still learning to trust and have faith in you... so be patience with mi... huan rong play my feeling the hurt have recovered because honey... but the fear is still there...

disappointed?

dun noe lar... did stupid thing... ha ha take wrong direction bus =.= den ended up back to woodland interchange...

saw bridget in j8 after work... have a short chat... she look so joyful when she saw mi... although the chat was short but i'm happy still...

what still can i write about?.................................................................................................................


i m getting more difficult? getting more and more heavy? do u feel tired? because i'm... i guess this is normal cause everyone do feel tired just as shuen said to mi before... ai yeah... dun noe lar...
i so stupid sia... dun noe wat on my mind...
so super weak...
i hate it this way...






7th month? shit!

我们之间

这一段时间 有着什么样的画面喜怒哀乐全写在日记里面发现 每一页全都是经典所有故事都值得纪念

现实的考验 我们说好一起面对不管多久多远绝对不喊累期待 彼此更美好的明天我们说好谁也不放弃谁

手牵着手(连成线 最紧密的圆圈)肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)深呼吸 做你最高的堡垒风吹过的海边雨水下过的季节让我好想念

我们之间不会有改变相同的起点 一瞬间变成了乐园我们之间转了一大圈相同的终点 会发现所有的心愿 会实现

现实的考验 我们说好一起面对不管多久多远绝对不喊累期待 彼此更美好的明天我们说好谁也不放弃谁

手牵着手(连成线 最紧密的圆圈)肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)深呼吸 做你最高的堡垒风吹过的海边雨水下过的季节让我好想念

我们之间 不会有改变相同的起点 一瞬间变成了乐园我们之间 转了一大圈相同的终点 会发现所有的心愿 会实现

我们之间 不会有改变相同的起点 一瞬间变成了乐园我们之间 转了一大圈相同的终点 会发现所有的心愿 会实现

我们之间一瞬间 变成了乐园我们之间 转了一大圈相同的终点 会发现所有的心愿 会实现

Actually wanted to change blogskin but kind of troublesome...

Anyway ytd work with manger at J8.... was quite okie.. hook a big fish... she spent 500over dollar XDD and during work i keep thinking of my honey... i wondered why... i miss you alot seriously... can you see the rainbow? i think i did... i miss fishball too... been waiting for your off day leii... den want go out have fun with you.. some how this few days my money very tight... and hate it this way...

to mi biggest fish in life...

i fish untill a shark, but ended the shark fish mi cause he too big le... so stupid... Just like in bus 113, i wanted to make you like mi cause i find you handsome, ended up you smile to mi and make mi like you... and this is how we meet...

i'm really glad that you still love mi after so many storms, and i realise to have you by my side i' really blessed... tell you something that you might not know... my birthday wish for this year is actually have a good boyfriend (life partner), and God made it come true...

thank you for giving mi a verse to prepared before i start work... and some how you make mi laugh when i see you...

love love, please study hard... 10more days to happy 7month...

my date and time in blog is wrong... (take note)

another new begining

i quit More Than Word in just half a day... shocked that i cant even believe it... boring~ the person trying to teach mi everything just in one day, siao!

found another job, Ice Lemon Tea XDD tmr will be my first day working in Causeway Point, kind of excited? but scared later become disappointed... but this time going to be long term i promise... get scolding from elene and pei ling about quitting job in just in a day... this week and maybe next week will be at causeway but will then be J8...

3rd - 5th dec in camp2
11th-13th december going for mission trip to Malacca.
total amount spent for these 2 trips will be $130...
so must work, mommy not going to pay for mi! ><><

today is fishball off day then went out with kar yun and kasturi to PS... look for jin gui at Thai Express...

honey math paper1 today... heheh... he call mi immediatly after his exam and before exam... so sweet of him... XDD
honey all the best for ur O level... really really hope u do ur very best and i love you... just for ur information and i noe although we are not celebrating it but still nice to count the days.... 16 more than to happy 7th month... dun smile smile there hor... honey ytd very bad to mi hor... must treat mi nicer after ur O hor...

are we an item or are we not?

Sometimes u get mi abit lost here and there... i wonder are u afraid to let others know that u have a girlfriend or actually scare others noe that ur girlfriend is mi? ur blog have lesser and lesser of mi u writing about... if a guy really love a girl they really dun mind showing others thise picture that they took together before... i have no doubt of ur love for mi past few month but really wondering do u really mind that i m ur girlfriend? is it that bad?... or am i asking too much and complaining now?... no matter wat hope u do well for ur O level and remember to bring xiao zhu home after O...

DnT difficult!!! spoiled my dream of getting A... hais... ha ha half a year with honey le wor, so happy XDD althought like never celebrate but stil happy... N level over loh and now is looking for job... heh heh hopefully not FnB but retail job pls... pri school class gerthering got many many problem, hate it lar... after N got many things ahead...(maybe, maybe not) and hope that honey will study hard for O level... stop slacking!!! love~ heh heh fishball found a new quite high class job wor... pay also not bad... XDD must treat mi food cause i am like you, love to eat le... been meeting up with michelle... so yeah thing still alright hopefully, just money abit tight cause spent too much on food le...

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few more days no more school and soon 4E1 is like a history to mi... and hopefully everyone will be happy and get a good result... hmm for mi, hopefully feel nothing or abit missing here and there...

study hard for your O level, and be more nicer to mi hor... try not to eat unhealthy food for time being cause later like mi get sick before Nlevel... XDD drink plenty of water and sleep earlyer... you left like 2weeks olny? All the best XDD love love, Pray for you... :))

God bless

wah ha ha ha so long never post le... now left a few papers and gone case ha ha... finding job now and also waiting for BBQ day... abit freak up by BBQ stuff... hais... dun noe wat to say leii... 5 more days to 6th month... congrat to wa ha ha... okay stop here le...

actually dun noe what to say...

hmm or actually got quite a lot to say?

terrible...

to post or not to post?

you ask me is relation the date important to me

my answer for you is yes. in the beginning no, it isn't a real date actually but dun noe since when i have been sticking to it and it becoming more important. i noe maybe you dun care because you are a guy but you once care a lot: meaning counting days that never had the chance to meet. i am not referring me... okay sorry i am talking rubbish, it just another normal date from now on.... la la la la...

No matter what still happy 4 month on 12.8.09! love loads... heh heh

thank God that we able to come so far, and i continue pray that God you will guild us and be with us... XDDDDDDDDDDDD

AMAN

Honey it's great to have you around and thank you for your understanding, it must be too hard for you, but i do cherish you a lot... 

3days to 3rd month, 4days to oral... ha ha ha ha...
doing research on DnT trying to get an A for that XD jia you~
30more days to exam... XC that is super fast...
planning on my timetable... working for the next two days and then not working i guess... XD hopefully...
tmr have prayer meeting with wanting in the library XD ha ha... this subday going the people bible church XD ha ha...
okie i'm sorry, this few days having some fight with you... was having mood swing which is quit bad... and i didnt want it to happen, so i still do hope that my moodswing will get better... love you... and it our 3rd month soon... i believe thing will get well... after my moodswing or even now.. ha ha thank for your patience toward me..

holidays about to end

ha ha soon school reopen and homework not much had done... this holiday seen to be very fast and it going to be July le... happy or sad both are included... getting new phone soon... been working and heard a bad news maybe it happen more than half a year le but i truly see how sinful a person can be... it troubled me all day long... and elene say... welcome to the world... sounded so sad... a man without God can be so heartless... during playmax some one said I WISH ALL YOUR DREAM OR GOAL WILL COME TRUE AND YOU WILL KNOW ACTUALLY IT IS NOT ALL... and i thought so to... ha ha i'm being super random i know...

this is copy from http://www.syfc.org.sg/ite/ - singapore youth for christ

Do It Anyways
April 14th, 2009
People are often unreasonable, irrational and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and sincere, people may deceive you;
Be honest and sincere anyway.
What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight;
Create anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, will often be forgotten;
Do good anyway.
Give the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give your best anyway.
In the final analysis, it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway.
- Mother Teresa



meeting honey after his tkd... ha ha hope he had a good time watching movie, swimming lesson and tkd... XD love you!

missing the past... primary school? no ideal why... maybe it normal... anyway tmr is ah neng birthday ha ha, so went elene's house bake cookies and cak for him... and it all chocolate so going to be super heaty, must drink lots of water!... XDDDDDDDD
must be very happy to recieve because it BEIYI doing although there is help from elene but bettter than buy from outside ma...
this few days was okie, thank God... going to work hard for N level le... XDDDDDDD
meeting ah neng below ah hui hs at 12pm so can also pass aH HUI the gife too... both thier birthday is in june... ha ha...
do research become posting blog =.= ha ha
cant wait to meet honey later... that all i gues

will rainbow appear after rain?

quite tired... honey Xian Xian should know why... so sudden... i am to blame... Elene going talk to me on sat... everything started from my wrong motive... but i had fallen in love... to a person who i know for few months anh who care and concern...


can any song make me fall a sleep peacefully? i feel like crying not because tat i want to let go it is because now is a difficult... no BUT then what answer she want? i just want to work for God and continue the relationship cant you just stop worrying? i know what i am going on i just hope you will understand what i trying to tell... you shock i know, i was wrong i know, but i am contented with now can you just agree with this relationship because i want him to be the last one, i know you scare that i might be hurt cause of his past but i accepted him, what had happen can just like it go? what important is i know love isn't just feeling yet is to do what is best for the another person. both of me and him is still learning... i know you want me to give him time to grow on his on toward our common God, but is it a must?

i had decided to leave cell for a purpose... and well i think it is right for me to leave for in the first i go for wrong motive. and part of it is i didn't grow...

God, will you allowed rainbow after rain? it raining in my heart now... Lord thank you but i really pray that he will be the last one, and i promise i will not get distracted and yet continue to do Your will... if i really distracted then i promise i will discuss with him...

XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

well, no more hiding? sorry honey for ytd... didnt noe you was carrying such a heavy bag and disappointed you and all... thank God that you still have patience with me during cell study... XD d n t paper fail for sure... now everyone know about it... and i am kind of happy actually... ^.^ i am still learning on the way, please be patience with me when misunderstanding happen...

these few days was really great... XD thank God... hope it will continue and i dun mind... what should i write? i dun noe.... ha ha
not going church tml cause dad house celebrating mother early.... help carry stuff...

exam is next week... XC not really prepare but good that he and elene do help me with my studies....

God bless...

what to say???

happy and sad???

but at the end of the day what will happen? cant guess much...
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training on this friday about play max... hope as many peoples as possible... XD
then got the evok stuff must go home and check where i put.. if lose it, DIE! ha ha careless me putting somewhere then i forget where isit... sian.... hate it when i am lyk tat...

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ytd went out with xin ying verii fun... feel lyk buying stuff in body shop... ha ha...

This few days was good... ha ha... but bad thing is it couldnt last... next sat after chruch going dad house again... cousin might going ha ha... miss her, she gona lend me some CDs... so long never contact A neng wondered how is he now... exam coming yet i'm slacking... i hate it... today was late, teacher check, get scolding, need tie hair, uniform must change and many more... because get scolding then i no time to do punishment ha ha.. very good but tml still got to go there let them check everything... xC dun ask me to cut because i wont answer you, what can you still do???

Thank God for saving my life

Dun use dog to scare or else i wont want to talk to you or care about you anymore... dun u noe one of my greatest fear is dog... you seriously irratating. i almost cry you noe??? sorry you wont noe...

ytd went James's house then went kfc eat 2pcs meal. Guess wat happen next??? asthma acttack... i cant drink cold stuff and eat chicken... hais... ytd was terrible so i boiled hot water and pray to God... it save my life... i might die as wat doctor told me just now... my lung might burst and i will die very fast... the doctor very fierce and said i being irresponsible for myself... i didnt told my mummy about it... the doctor called my mummy and say i must follow up and stuff... It serious and i noe, so i try not to drink anymore cold drink... i never thought that i am so weak... elene say if i want to continue serve the Lord den i must take care of myself...

i got to thank God about this thing cause He save my life... and i am sorry for not taking good care of God temple... i regretted...

to you, Kuan Lian*

how have you been??? wish to ask him that... it been two years that i had not see you... primary skol memory i will never forget... that type of feeling stay forever within me.this is the first time i use my whole heart to write it with me not thinking long... nothing hide... have you forget me??? this year is ur o level wish that every thing went well to you... i rmb the fun we had in student care, that will always keep in my heart... i mean it not only you that i remember, mrs heng, mei fang and more... hougang cc is the pleace that give me the most memory, what about you??? i know you might not reply but i am okie with it, cause it expected... is my angel coin box still with you? is this the reason that i took d n t??? ha ha i dun noe...
Hope you and her will be love forever... shall you not forget me...

i give you my whole blessing XD
writing this make me smile hope you too...

i m sad

I'll soon leave that church for some reason and attend on sunday youth servies in the people bible church near my school. i accidentally hurt someone so badly... i feel guilty this few days... seriously... i didnt mean it that way... i guess he got me wrong... i going to say sorry to him in face to face... that will be better as my bible study teacher... i'm sorry... i learnt my lesson now liao... i wont make any of that stupid jokes anymore le... hope he will forgive me...

I am late today morning and it the first time of this year...

This few days i feel really down... seriously... i fail one subject and still slacking... i hate it... today i use 2and half hour to read finish a story book which is good...

time seem to be running every sec just pass thought me without a warning....

i am still getting over him yet... hais... very pain...

clear everything under my table and staring my d n t very soon...
enjoy my photo... XD

had a blessed day... God bless...

i... actually nothing much to say... hais... heh heh i got new chinese songs... very happy... today actually had to go gym but ended up going to kai neng house... xin ying ask me to go swimming this sat... ha ha going but only use my eye power... ha ha today prayer meeting cancer.. sad... plan again soon... wan ting pls plan well with me bout the prayer meeting lehh... i arx, sad to say any stuff... i fail 1subject... result become so worst... relationship went wrong, asthma come again... anyway not really relationship dun get me wrong... i'm not in yet... maybe not ready or not in time yet... hais... been waiting for 2 month more in order to get new phone... i am mad bout it... ha ha been saving very hard... XD boring reading my blog ha ha.. knew it cause i also kind of boring... but dosnt matter...

Has a blessed day,
God bless

when kai house today, like 5 or 6 years ago show, very deep, very funny it just a old show yet i felt deep. didnt really cry while wacthing that show, but i sound stupid... but i love this show...
hmmm, i getting over somebody... soon??? i dun noe... few days ago i went to pass ah hui present ha ha he bought a soft toy dog fro me... XD ha ha ah egg also give me a small bear ha ha but didnt take photo of that yet XC ha ha dosnt matter...

my recent QT (one step at a time)

James2:14-26

One morning a retired resident of a new England Coastal town noticed a youngster walking along the beach. As he watched, he saw that time to time the little girl will stoop down, pick up something off the sand, and throw it into the water. Curious, the old-timer followed her and discovered that she was picking up stranded starfish and putting them back into the ocean. shacking his head, he caught up to her and said, "
miss, There are thousands of starfish along the beach. What difference is it going to make if you throw a few back." The little girl looked down at the starfish in her hand and said, "it will make a different to this one."

ha ha Finally there is a post C: Hope you can learn with me through this QT ^.^